Hey everybody, it has been forever since I have written. I miss it! I have been busy at work and enjoying my residents. Life is good! I still have my dreams and striving to reach them. I still find it difficult to be present and in the moment. I feel like I need balance in my life, that is hard for me. Surrendering to now and striving for my dream, how in the hell do you do that? Every person I work with has no goals, no dreams they just do their "thing" whatever that may be. So many of them say that their life is their job, and that they have nothing else. I try not to judge them, in fact I have no right to judge them, but lets put it this way, I don't get it! I tell you one thing they are amazing people and I love them dearly, I just want to see them happy. Most people don't seem happy to me. What do you guys think out there in facebook land? Are you happy? Do you like your job? Your life? I find myself happy for weeks at a time and then Boom! I get wrapped up in beating myself up, for not loosing enough weight, or going to bed to early or not exercising that day and especially for not being present. When I finally get out of "my complaining mood", I should say, than I am happy again. It is strange really I am my best friend and at times my worst enemy. I just assume that it is that way for everybody? Who knows? Right now I have a three day weekend and I am going to enjoy myself, enjoy life, and be grateful for the moment. See you soon, have a great weekend.
Lauren
