Sunday, January 8, 2012

"Who are we?"

I haven't written anything for a long time. I have been diving into the depths of "who am I", who we all are. When I wrote my book, "A Touch on the Shoulder" it talked about my journey of discovery. I had learned so much over that year in writing about my life's adventures, the darkness I faced, and all the wonders I discovered along the way. I realized a while ago that I wasn't just this body, I wasn't a name that someone gave me, or the job I did, or even just a wife or daughter. Who was I? I, like most people, fell into the trap of searching outside my self for answers. I faced everything outside myself, I forgave the two men who molested me, I forgave my mom and realized that I had to ask for her forgiveness as well. I forgave all those who I thought offended me in some way, I faced the children within, and I stopped judging my co-workers and excepted them for who they were. So, what incredible insight I have to share with the world? That when you have no one else to blame, you have only yourself left. Then you realize that happiness is fleeting at best and comes and goes like the whims of emotions. What we are all searching for, which we don't really realize, is true peace with in, a kind of peace, of joy that you cannot find in what you see through the ego's eyes, this man made ego's world. You cannot find it in relationships, or in material things, you cannot find it in susses, and you definitely cannot find it by being thin, NOTHING you can "see", or you can "get" can give you this peace. It only comes from within, a place where most people do not want to go. The question is how can I get this peace? By not buying into the illusions of this world, and seeking the truth which lies behind the eyes of everything you ever knew or think you know. It's peeling away the layers, like an onion, and leaving the past and all it's perceptions behind. It lies beneath the judgements, assumptions and only found through forgiveness. It is who you truly are!