"living a life In-Spirit"

Monday was an incredible day for me. The sky was so clear and blue. The colors of the trees are starting to change for fall. Fall is my favorite time of year. All the colors, and the light from the sun is different, it seems more vibrant to me. I am in a good space, a space between the self and God, where everything flows. I guess you can say right at this moment I am at a higher state, it is where the ego can not exist. I want to write about "being", it is difficult to be present all the time. But today I realized that trying to be present was hard for me. I kept going in and out of the ego's mind and being present. I discovered that we have a choice every moment, and that co-exists with being in the now. By being present it is easier to choose how to react in the next moment. For example, we can choose to send love to the person at work that drives us crazy, instead of judging them, we can choose to take a step back when everyone around us is running around stressed out, and not let it consume us. If I can remember that I have a choice in my reaction to every situation, than I am the only one to blame if I have a bad day. I can not blame anyone else, or have the right to judge them. I choose to live in-spirit. What does that mean? It means I am trying to live in a higher vibration of energy which consist of love, joy, peace and laughter. The low vibrations of energy such is anger, hate, blame, and discontent only attracts exactly that. If you hate, that is what you attract. It is simply the law of attraction. If you want love in your life, be that and choose to give that to others. It is simple really surround them in white light and let be who they are. Do not judge them, they are only in pain, so send them love and peace. The more you are present the more you are in-spirit, the more you are in-spirit the more you are present. I have been avoiding talking about this subject, the part about "being in- spirit, I guess out of fear, but I am letting it all out, because I see God everywhere, I see beauty and I see awe. I know this is not the conventional way of looking at things, but everything that I will talk about has brought me to an incredible place. I am sharing from my heart and at this very moment I am in-spirit.
Lauren

"People are interesting"

I hope everyone had a glorious weekend. It was pouring rain on Sunday, so my husband and I watched the Borne Identity Trilogy and hung out in our pajamas. It was awesome! I watched a show the other day and one of the characters said" there are two types of people, one of having and the other of being." He went on to explain the "having" people live their lives acquiring things, while the "being" people live for the experiences and sharing with others. I thought that was great. I honestly believe it is true. The question is can you be both? I think you can but there is one more dominant then the other. I definitely live for the experiences, but the most important "things" in my life, well, I wouldn't exactly call them things are my pets. But then again my relationship with them is an experience. This is very interesting to me. The character finished the conversation by saying that in 1960 public storage's did not exist and now there are 2.35 billion square footage of self storage units in the United States. (I had my husband look up the info from the program) Can you believe it. Life and people are so interesting. I find myself instead of judging them being in awe of how interesting and different we are. Or maybe that is just a polite way to judge. Who knows?
Lauren

"Brighten up your day"

Today is Friday! I know that makes a lot of people happy. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. Let's do something a little special this weekend, shall we. A while ago I wrote about random acts of kindness. Let do that again, spread some joy to our fellow human beings. Some times I get free coupons for a item at the grocery store and I give it to another costumer and it doesn't cost me anything. Buy someone a cup of coffee, or when you think something positive about someone else tell them even if they are strangers. If you like their earrings, tell them, if you like the shirt they are wearing, let them know. You will see them light up, and it is a great opener for a conversation. Or you can do something easy like smile to a homeless person, most people turn away. Be creative, keep it simple, or go for it. Not only will it make the other person happy it will brighten up your day as well. Have fun, and dance in the rain!
Lauren

"Sounds easy"

I gave my first speech last night at Toastmasters. Everyone had good things to say, but I was unhappy with it. The first speech is always about the person's life. Sounds easy, but I was nervous. I did not say what I wanted to say and did not stick to my notes. Every time I would look at my notes I did not know where I was, and I did not want to stand there looking at them. The reason why I am doing Toastmaster is to help improve on my workshops for women. I am starting up my workshops again in January. So, now the question is am I being in my head and beating myself up, or am I honest with myself that I need improvement. Maybe a little of both.
I asked the group if I would be allowed to practice my presentations that I will be doing in my workshops and they gave me the OK. I am noticing the rambling in my head, "but there are men there", "they wouldn't get it" "what are you doing!" "you will make an ass out of yourself." I am so sick of that voice in my head, always putting me down. That is not me, and I know that. I am so glad I am aware of it, and not letting it take over my life. Here's to not letting the ego's mind get in the way of our lives.
Lauren

"What will I be today?"

Another day has gone by. It was better than I expected, but I wasn't as happy as usual. I feel like I am fighting a cold. So in other words I was not very inspirational yesterday. But, because it is another day, now I can start over and be what I want to be for today. Today I will be inspiration & patience! Is it that easy to choose what we want to be? Can we say today I will be........., and make that happen? I think so. I think we have the power to be whatever we want to be. We just have to stop getting in the way of ourselves. I was so in my head yesterday, I ruin a perfectly good day. I am giving my first speech tonight at "Toastmasters". The topic is ourselves and my title is "my journey to self discovery". I will talk about my journey up to now. It is funny I talk about searching outside myself and ultimately finding all the answers in me. But what does that really mean. We here it all the time. For me it just mean acceptance of one's self, and knowing that you are perfect the way you are. Perfections does not necessarily mean thin, beautiful and rich. It is finding the beauty in everything, once you can do that then you are truly free from discontent.
Lauren

"Lets see if I can."

Well guys, I can't seem to get out of my head. I feel hopeless, and defeated. I mean I know I won't give up on my dream, but at this moment I just want to hide out in my room and not worry about a damn thing. I have been running the same recording in my head "it is not fair!" over and over again. Doubting everything that I am. I can't seem to get out. It is weird, for the past 6 months is has been getting easier, but not these past few days. My body is aligned with my head, just like on my bike ride. I hate when this happens. I have to go and be happy and energetic with my residents in a few minutes. Damn! Who knows maybe they can help me get out of my funk. What do you do when this happens to you? Does it ruin your week? Can you get out of it quickly? Lets see if I can. Boy, I hope so, or else this will be a long week.
Lauren

"It could have been a wonderful bike ride."

I went on a bike ride on Sunday. It started raining in the morning and I thought my husband said it will be raining until around 11:00 am. So I was happy with the excuse for not bike riding because I had to be somewhere around noon. So I was working on the table of contents and copyright page of my book. Then he said "Are you done yet, the rain stopped lets go bike riding." I was not in the mood, and started complaining and being totally in "ego mode" then he gave me some other news that his car was stalling and had to be looked at. I thought "oh no!, more money to throw away" So, now I am really racing in my head. I had the most miserable bike ride ever, not only did it seem like it lasted forever, it was like my body did not want to work. No matter how hard I tried to push myself, I had no energy, it was way more difficult than before. I was in my head the whole time and it effected everything. I finally said to myself, "that is enough! we are not having a pity party, so stop it!" But by then it was too late, my body was aligned with the ego, and when I finally was getting out of it, the bike ride was over. What a waste of energy, time and what could of been a wonderful bike ride. Just a another example of how the ego took over and I lost myself. Well, not next time!
Lauren